date: Saturday, November 21, 2009 @ 9:11 pm
title: God delivers
I can't fathom how to be myself anymore. I went so far to change every part of me. my thoughts. my life. my passion. my motivation. my reason to even live.
can someone teach me how to be myself? I dun think so.
I'm gonna fast big time. I need to learn to say no, resist the temptation to raise my hands when being asked, "who wants?" Having too much to chew is not such a good idea. know yr place. know yrself.
I really can't wait anymore. I want to fast and break for some miracle - good or bad. to see results. Like what I used to think, if you marry the wrong person and that person hinders your destiny, pray for something to happen to your spouse. good or bad. let God decide. Ruth's husband, according to the bible, was killed mysteriously, so that she will fulfill her destiny.
Oh well. talk so much for what. no point. really. I feel now that there's no point talking. I really need a miracle. I need to fast and pray for multiple to take place in a week's time.
I'm losing confidence in myself and my work. but I know I can trust God. What to do. when all else fails, God will deliver.
If He doesn't. den I will fast more and pray more. He must deliver, by hook or crook. God. Deliver hor. I'm waiting :D
